I am so confused about this Major project. My feelings and emotions are all over the place.
I know that sounds a bit dramatic but it's true. One minute I feel that I can't carry on - that it's all absolute shit and the next I get an idea and things are looking up Then I try the idea and it's all shit again.
At the moment things are looking up - a bit. I've been struggling about how to write something historical without making it too dry but I don't know if I have the confidence to do it. What I do know is that if I write it the way I have been doing Sam and David will probably rip it to shreds. So, I probably should take the chance and go for it.
I just wish I could get something either Sam or David said out of my head when classes finished. They were giving us a pep talk to get us in the mood for starting. There was 77 days to go. I remember that because it was written in big letters on the board. 77 days. No problem - that was plenty of time, wasn't it? NO is the answer to that one. No is is not.
Anyway, what one of them said was just because we had paid a lot of money to be on the course didn't mean we automatically got an MA. If the work isn't good enough we will fail.
I never thought for a moment I was buying an MA. I have worked so hard for this. I don't think I've ever tackled anything so difficult - even my first degree. But to hear someone say that? It was a huge slap around the head which still stings.
There's only 2 weeks to go to hand in day. I've now written about 19,555 words but I still need to inject some style into it - something to make it bounce and not lie on the floor like a burst balloon. And that's the hard part.
Ok - I've had my moan for the day. Well, for the hour at least.
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